Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Gone Fishing

I'm off to a new lake; hope the fish are biting. :-)

Monday, October 25, 2004

Taking Off

It's been awhile since I've actually gone away for a vacation. I've taken a few vacations while family and friends have been in town but I don't think I've flown anywhere since 9/11. Yes, it's been that long. There hasn't been any particular reason why I haven't traveled anywhere. I think the my last trip was to DC right before 9/11.

This trip is quite exciting for me. Besides the fact that I get to add 3 more states to my list of "states I've visited," I will meet some of my future family members. It's quite exciting and scary at the same time. I know they are just as nervous as I am and that makes it a little more easier to handle. From all the other correspondence I have already had with them, I'm not too worried. They are all very likeable and I can't wait to get to know them in person.

These last couple days at work probably won't be as productive as I'd like them to be. But that's understanding as I have got other things on my mind right now.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Counting

It used to be months. Then weeks. Now days. Soon it'll be only hours. I can't believe I'll be seeing my sweetie soon! =) Being near him takes my breath away and it's a feeling I never want to end. I never thought I'd find myself in a long distance relationship and though it's been a bit hard at times over the last couple of months, we've really worked at keeping each other sane. I think he's done it more for me that I have for him. He truly is my rock and has been my rock. If we can make our relationship work being this far apart, I think we can weather anything. I can't wait to see you, baby!

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Out Of Reach But Not Out Of Sight

Today I feel like the cat that just couldn't get the canary. ;-) Don't worry, I'm stubborn and determined. Tomorrow is another day.

Monday, October 18, 2004

Meet The Parents

Ever get that Ben Stiller moment like when he first meets The Parents? This morning, of all mornings, I had that moment. Up until now, I felt pretty comfortable meeting the parents because on some basic level we have already established a relationship; albeit it's by email but it's still a relationship. Frankly I'm worried because of my ethnic and cultural background. I know it's silly to be worried about such things and I've never cared much about what others think but this is different. I guess I hope I "fit" into what they had hoped their son would bring home. I know they don't have a particular preference but these are the things I worry about. I'm sure I won't have to go through any of the tests like Ben did. I wonder how he'll feel Meeting the Fockers?

Being A Couple

I think one of my most favorite memories of your visit here was the last night. Do you remember going to the movies and then going out to eat? What I particularly liked about that evening was when I told you my feet were cold and you, without hesitation, told me to give you my feet to warm up. We were just being a couple. I think that's what I miss the most about being apart from you. Of course, at times this is what I'm most afraid of. How will we function as a normal day-to-day couple? I don't think anything will be too different except that we will get to see each other every day and provide the kind of comfort you can't provide being apart such as a simple hug. Yes, I can't wait to be that couple.

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Two Is Better Than One

I used to think that all I needed was just me. Sure I have supportive family and friends but when it came to matters of the heart, in the end the only person I could really count on was myself. I guess it was part of my self-preservation effort; mostly to preserve my heart. But now I realize how much better it is being able to count on someone else. It's days like the last couple ones where you just need a person to love and support you, and make you feel better without any questions. I'm learning how important that is and how much better the world is when it's two instead of one against it.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

A Pensive Mood

I normally don't leave work early. In fact, I hardly ever leave work on time and to leave early is unheard of. But today I just had to. I can't explain how I've been feeling the last two days except to say that maybe I feel a bit melancholy. With everything else, it too shall pass.

Monday, October 11, 2004

Some Days Just End This Way

For some reason today, in particular, ended up being bleh. I'm really not sure how to describe my disposition except as bleh. These are the days that talking just doesn't do it. I would prefer to just sit quietly and just be, that's all. I'm glad tomorrow is another day.

Weekend Stuff

I had a good weekend that wasn't filled with too much to do. Probably the most significant part of it was meeting a new friend. Actually this is someone I have been emailing with for the last couple of months. She actually approached me when she discovered we had similar circumstances regarding meeting our significant others. I was glad to lend whatever advice I could since it seemed that my relationship was in a much more advanced stage than hers at the time, and since then has progressed a lot further.

She is a 25, soon to be 26, year old woman who moved here about three years ago. She met her significant other the same way I met mine but their relationship has yet to go to the same level as mine did in the same amount of time. She and I are similar in a lot of ways but we are also different as are our significant others. I think the bottomline is that she was and is looking for some support in her relationship because of the way she met him. I was happy to sit and chat with her for almost two hours. I remember going through some of the exact same situations and having the exact same worries as she is having. The funny part is that it wasn't too long ago but it feels like it was. My perspective is that if it is meant to be, it will be and things will work itself out. Of course that is little comfort to anyone who is in that situation. Things happened for me when I didn't expect them to happen while she wants them to happen or at least have some sense that it is happening. Like I told her, no man spends the time to call or talk to you unless they are interested in some way, and after nine months, they are.

The rest of the weekend was fairly quiet for me. I was extremely happy but a lot of that was due in part to my upcoming vacation! Only 15 more days (not counting today or the day I leave) before I am off.

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Love-O-Meter

Currently off the charts! I think we may have broke it. :-)

Friday, October 08, 2004

Work Life

My work life thus far has been quite rewarding. I've had good jobs in terms of what I do though not always what I earned. But that's okay. My dad used to tell my brother and I that we should enjoy our professions because chances are we'd be doing that for 20 or so years. It's hard to imagine doing a job for 20 years.

I've been with my current employer over 8 years but in a couple of different positions. As far as a life career choice, this wasn't what I had intended but it has served me well. I enjoy the challenges I take on everyday and I also have learned quite a bit. I'm very fortunate that my skills include fiscal management, facilities, purchasing, auditing, decision-making, general management, and a number of other miscellaneous though not insignificant duties. These together with my educated skills of journalism (public relations) and teaching, and life skills as a newspaper reporter and salesperson should help me to continue to have a full and rewarding work life.

There are changes in the wind and as it approaches, I'm sure I'll be rethinking and re-evaluating where I can go from here.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

We've Come A Long Way

I feel like our relationship has grown so much since we were last together. Seems strange to say and think that but it's true. We've made some life-changing decisions together and worked on those plans in earnest. We've definitely come a long way, baby! I'm glad I get to make this journey with you because there is no one else in this world that I can imagine taking this adventure with.

Admittedly, I have wondered if we really know each other well enough to be making this commitment. But what really constitutes "knowing" someone? We continue to grow together and learn together, and, truthfully to me, that's the most important thing. We are both individuals and I will never expect us to be the same person. I don't want us to be the same person because it's our individuality that attracted us to each other. Our core values and beliefs became the foundation of our relationship but nothing says more about how a relationship will be until you bring in the other parts. And as we both know, the other parts work well together.

So really, I do know you. I know that you are hardworking, honest, passionate, silly, humorous, kind, loving, gentle, sensitive, slightly arrogant, protective, smart, thoughtful, and all the other things I want in the person I will spend the rest of my life with. We have come a long way but we still have a ways to go, and I can't wait to go with you!

Monday, October 04, 2004

Christmas Is Here?

It seems like the Christmas season begins earlier and earlier every year. We have yet to acknowledge Halloween and Thanksgiving, and already the stores have started to push their Christmas decorations, et al. Truthfully, I love this time of the year because it is packed with so much holidays. For me, Christmas begins on one particular day of the year. I can't tell you what day it is because it's different every year. It has to do with the feeling I get on a day when the air is just so crisp that it signals the Christmas season is here. I tend to watch the movie, Miracle on 42nd Street, because to me that is what Christmas is all about: Macy's, Santa Claus, children and love. The original movie is my favorite and I don't even care if I see it in its original black and white; I never get tired of seeing it.